Sorry guys, emo.

what the hell? tears drop yesterday night, i thought i don’t care bout the result. but now, i think i do care bout that. cant sleep yesterday night, was thinking about something, yea something. there’s something i don’t understand, my result aint bad when primary, till form1 first time got a 50/100 for geography, weird you know, i don’t feel sad. something funny, laugh all you want, that were silly. last year, i cried so many times for maths results, i got the highest, 70sth, should be happy right? well, i’m not! the first time got a B for maths, hell. i cried, i think some of my friends were like, what the…? cried for what? the highest should be happy okay, at least you got a B and we failed. the paper was hard, really. i expected higher marks, as long as it’s A. till this year, i still being a crybaby, oh gosh. i guess i know what you guys are thinking. for girls, cry is the way to express sadness, maybe only for me? it’s stupid i know, cry for results, what for? work harder next time right. i always have that kind of thinking, but i cant make it. cant remember what i had read, maybe not enough concentration. whatever. i gonna work real hard next year. i aint stupid. beginning of the year, i was being emo, felt so down everyday in school, i don’t know why. don’t feel like talking, just like hating everyone. i think no one knows, not even my best friend. been quiet from morning till school dismissed, why? i wonder why. and i don’t know what’s the reason i changed, from quiet to talkative. till year end there were sometimes i still being emo, down in the dumps. and yesterday night, I just realized how bad am i, the way i treat my partner, she’s a great partner, just the way i treat her, real bad, that hurts if someone treat me like that, i'm sorry. thinking halfway, i took my phone and sms-ed her, wished her Merry Christmas. blahhh.

damn, i'm so down now.